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I (hope)

I hope whatever it is you're looking for,
You find.
I hope the sun shines a sheen
Not a brine.
I hope the way he touches
Tortures you,
The way that your touch, mine.
I hope like say this will all heal,
in time.

I hope he eats his food as starving,
Like a child you must be.
I never wanted anything but to be happy,
Wild,
Free.
I guess i took the truth for granted,
That what you get is what you see,
I hope the sea moves you away
so far awaaay from me.

I cannot breathe with your face so freshly in my mind,
You haunt,
You get all the best halves of my life
And I'd give you all (the other halves)
Just to be intertwined
With the Man who told me
That i was the one thing he thought he'd never find.

Am i fooling myself,
Against the world,
Thinking you are blind?
Am i running like a death told train,
On lonely borrowed time,
I hope that all the things you are are not what i'm meant to find.

Because i have to let you,
Put this running wolf on road
Because if I stay i'm scared of the rest of me that's bound to be left behind.

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